Hi girls,
How has everyone been doing? My week has been up and down. Last Friday my mom and I started the process of trying to pick out a headstone and that was an emotional process and one that we could only spend some time on and then needed a break. We got information from the man we talked with and at some point we will come back together and try to make some more decisions. It's a baby step process. I talked with my friend who shared with me something valuable- in my eyes i kind of looked at the headstone as being the final step. Once its put up, everything's done with, final and it all really happened. She shared with me as trying to look at it as being a beautiful thing and place where my dad is now resting in peace and happiness, in no more pain and it is a place where i can come to and be 1:1 with my dad and share more memories with him. I feel that this is a more healthy approach than what I was thinking and am really trying to shift my view to thinking this way.
On Tuesday I had an interview for an instructional assistant job at a different school in huntington. I felt pretty good about it and thought that I would have a good lead on it since i was a previous instructional assistant and that this is what this job would be. I got a call at 8:45 last night from the prinicpal, which I was completely taken aback (is this even a word?) by, and found out that they chose someone else. So now I am feeling down. I really thought I would get this job and it would be more hours than the one I had last year. I am wondering what this other candidate had that I didn't have? This always happens to me..I feel like I did really well in the interview and then I find out what I wasn't the right candidate. Sometimes I feel like I am pushing through a brick wall and can't break through to the other side where there is a teaching job available. So, my more than once a day praying continues. I'm trying to keep hope and believing that there is a plan for me, but sometimes I fall and feel like I am a failure. I wish it were easier to find a job right now.
Anyway I don't want to keep going on in making everyone feel depressed as they read my post. I am doing okay for most of the time but then there are times where I'm not and that is to be expected. Still doing the endless house searching....you think there would be a house out there that we would like and work out for us.
Monica- I am glad that you put up a picture of your baby bump. Its nice to see your little baby since we can't see you much right now. I am so happy for you and Paul. It is easy to see how excited you two are.
I hope everyone has an enjoyable weekend. April moves back to Purdue today and its going to feel weird not having her around. She was home for about 3 months. I love you all and am so thankful that you are a part of my life.
Love to all